I'm a lost shepherd

I was thinking about the "Dukes of Hazzard" today. Bo and Luke would call to Uncle Jesse over the CB, "Lost sheep to shepherd, lost sheep to shepherd." Uncle Jesse would then respond and be there to help his sheep out.

Well, working in a church, I am supposed to shepherd the worship band. I must admit that I have not been doing a good job of it lately. I am typically in a bad mood on Sunday mornings and find myself being short with people and impatient with minor things. I've been trying to figure this out. Why am I behaving this way? In thinking about this I recently had a conversation with a good friend, Josh, who is a men's pastor, and he told me that he recently joined a small group. I asked, "do you have to lead it?" He said no, that he just needed to be involved in something in which he didn't have to be the shepherd. How can you expect to shepherd others if you aren't being shepherded, yourself? And then it hit me, I think that's where I am. I am not involved in anything outside of worship band and, therefore am not being shepherded. I am at a place in life right now where I need some leading and shepherding. Now how do I get it? A small group you say? Well, I don't know of any to join and have not been invited to be involved in one. I guess it would be because all of the current small groups are "full?" Now, to be fair, it would be nice to be involved in a group that I actually had some things in common with. Meaning, it seems that everyone I know is married or further along in life than I. I would really like to be with a group of people that are in the same place in life that I am. Am I asking too much? Am I missing the point? All I know is that I cannot continue this current pattern in my life.